After 18 months, I've finally developed some itch to start songwriting. That's no exaggeration…I recall literally squeezing "Train" out of my brain in October 2010 in the push to get 'one more decent song' on the new CD. Since then, until now, I have felt no desire to create any new music. I haven't had such a long dry spell since I began to write music seriously. I wasn't particularly concerned – there has been no shortage of other aspects of my music to work on, and the extra creative juice might have even been distracting – but I was surprised. Had I really exorcised all my demons and childhood traumas so thoroughly as to have scoured the closet clean?And yet I felt no burning desire to get a some theme off my chest. It was a curious feeling.
But now, no more. Perhaps it's the kid-song stint, but I've found myself singing out loud during my sessions at work. All well-known classic kid songs, but with some modifications. And of course, there is my tuneless riffing of ideas in a sing-song voice. Which I now realize is essentially my key to songwriting.
It happened last week that I was trying to occupy a particularly active 2-year old with a tow truck and a fire engine, hopelessly disproportionate to each other. There was no way in hell that tow truck could tow the fire engine, but it didn't stop us from trying.And then it dawned on me: I didn't know of any tow truck songs. There may not be any songs about tow trucks in existence, in fact. But there should be.
There it stewed in my head, until last night I found myself tossing and turning at all hours, trying to find the proper melodic lilt that would suit the nature of play with a toy tow truck. It is an arduous task; I was reminded of St. Antoine Exupery's dilemma of trying to determine whether the sheep had eaten the flower. It is so easy it is difficult, yet so insurmountably difficult that in fact it is effortlessly easy. I think I have a chorus, or a first verse, or something scratched out, but nothing worth presenting at this time. But I feel it moving within my mind.